i am a fragile creature. no one seems to think that, though. everybody thinks "aw, she's a scapper".

maybe whining more would help?

don't like being thought of as strong. it does not seem to serve me.

so, because i am a toughy, i have to slay dragons. unfair, really. unless someone thinks it's sexy... then maybe it's okay in a trinity/keanureeves/matrix-y kinda way.

wanna be the one that puts people out. that others have to cope with. the one that is "difficult, but ablsolutely necessary". the one that everyone needs to accomidate.

i have a self-assigned nickname for myself. that is: "shock-absorber". so my co-workers, my boss, my closest people, they all get to do what they do-and i adjust.

and, funny, its getting a wee bit old.

maybe i could scare some folks by acting strange and aloof and a bit morose...

just an idea.